I do not know what to do i jus wanna get out ?

I believe that you have expressed your feelings on yahoo. It is very sad about what you have endured already at your age. If everything you said is true, you have been through your own hell here on earth. You saw your mother get d and shot, they made you shoot your father, or they would have killed you if you didn't. PLus you had to wittiness a lot of other young people murdered. I can't think of anything worse that anybody could have gone through. You have to turn to God and tell him to give you the strength to stop thinking about what you have experienced. One day you won't think about it everyday like you do now. Talk to your therapist. Listen to what they tell you, God has them there to help you through your ordeal. You not only have to find peace in God, you have to find peace with God. You have to stop hating God. There are a lot of bad people in this world. I don't believe that you should go back to where you were at. You are a whole lot better off here in the United States, at least here you will have a chance to a better life. You just has to give God and the people here a chance. Good Luck and God Bless You.